It's Easier Said Than Done

I've come to the conclusion that no two people are necessarily perfect for another, you must see everything in someone and accept them as a whole in order to be happy. Does this make sense? "We waste time looking for the perfect....lover, instead of creating the perfect love." I never really understood what it took from ME to actually give my love to someone. Now, after being in a relationship for as long as i was it sucks knowing that I could have easily given and showed less and got more out of it. I feel as if i wasted more energy trying to keep my relationship together than actually enjoying it. Have you ever been hurt so many times by one person and lied to so many times by someone and your heart tells you that you just can't do it anymore...your exhausted...drained...fed up! I want to be happy and know that I am putting my positive efforts into something worth having. I want to know that my relationship with someone will be together tomorrow instead of fighting to keep it. Of course, love will definetly have you making choices you thought you would never make but if in the end the two of you are both happy, so be it. Somebody close to me has noticed how passive i am about some things and asked me one day "Why don't you just care more about things? Why don't you just be a bitch?" Well because it seemed that when i cared more, everything and everyone i cared about cared less. So why waste my energy on people who could give a shit? I am so unbelievably patient, i am so loving, i show so much affection, i have so much to give but very few i know that actually deserve it. From now on I choose to be more active/lively in my reactions to things, my responses to others...more aggressive if you will. We will see how this goes. I just want people to stay out of my business. Don't worry about me and mine. Don't worry about what im doing. Don't ask questions if your not ready to know the answer. Don't assume things when you don't know the straight facts. Don't tell me im doing something when im not doing it. Don't promise me something and break that promise. Don't cheat me. Don't yell at me. Do not ever disrespect me, my family or any of my friends. Most of all, Do not lie to me....because that attitude of "anything you can do i can do better" will definetly come back and it will come back 10 times harder than I used to do it. I don't want that for myself. I don't know how some people can think that way sometimes. I am a happy person. I would rather be smiling any day than moping and sitting around wondering when my life is gonna change or who's gonna treat me right? I am more of an optimistic person and choose not to dwell on those things. I would rather focus on the things I want. I want someone who will take my feelings into consideration at all times. I may forget what you say but I will always remember how you made me feel. I have a very good memory. I want everything positive. I realized that not every man is perfect and I believe this to be true. However, ladies please....ackowledge a man's positve efforts before you criticize his "1" mistake made. I see a man for what he is. I see the man that you have shown me and a man that I know I can always believe in. God has blessed me with someone understanding, trustworthy and most definetly strong, but always remember as much as you don't believe this "Behind every successful man, there is a successful woman" and i will never stop you from being the man you want to be. I will help to lead you into the right direction, to exceed your expectations, to succeed in everything you've ever wanted to do. "Every superhero has his weakness...." with that said, You are my Superhero! G'night.